i ≠ f(u)

I am not

a function

of you

Sent and Received

I did not set out
to cause a commotion.
I wrote down those words
to express my emotions.
No insult was meant,
none should be perceived.
There, message sent.
Was it received?

June 14, 2013

Social Media

Maybe I've never said this right,
though many times I've tried;

You've a thousand souls at your fingertip
but you forget the one by your side.

I know by nature you're social
and, with effort, we can share.

You don't have to ignore your friends
just remember that I’m here.

Have a Nice Day

So you won't read
my thoughts anymore?

I'm surprised you did,
you tend to ignore
the way I feel
and the things I say.

Don't let me keep you.
Have a nice day.

June 14, 2013

Neurotic Insomnia

Tonight, for once, I lay down
with no worries to suppress.
But now, it seems, I miss the
aggravation and the stress.

I can't sleep to save my life,
I just turn and toss.
Could having peace of mind
really be some sort of loss?

Maybe fear, uncertainty,
and even desperate prayer
provided me with comfort
like a care-worn teddy bear.

Perhaps I'm over-thinking this
and I should count some sheep,
or take half of an Ambien
and get myself some sleep!

June 13, 2013 at 12:37 am

The One Rule

Imagine love as a chess match.
I know they're not the same,
but humor me for a moment
as I talk about the game.

Pretend our match is played
between two pieces that we choose,
it's all about the gamesmanship,
we cannot win or lose.

We'll choose our favorite pieces
and we'll place them on the board.
Remember, winning's not the point;
The play is the reward.

I'll move your way and you'll move mine,
the fun is in the dance.
Your limits are your piece's moves
and strategy and chance.

There's only one exception, though,
one piece you cannot be,
because its moves are limitless
and that's not fair to me.

The one rule you must follow,
the thing you must not do,
is choose to be the queen because
I will not play with you.

June 12, 2013

Volcano

I live beneath a volcano.
Today everything is calm.
Tomorrow the mountain could erupt;
That's life, when you live with a time bomb.
I'm acutely aware it's a bad situation.
I don't know what I'm trying to prove,
That I have the courage to stay here regardless
Or that I'm just too stupid to move.

June 11, 2013

No. 53

I fear that time
begins to steal
the righteous anger
that I feel.
Acceptance is
a bitter pill;
At least the way
I felt was real.

June 10, 2013

Interloper

I think the devil's nervous,
she knows we're going to try
to put the past behind us
and let bygones be gone by.

She knows that if we're stronger
you won't need her anymore,
and she'll fight hard to keep you
at her side forevermore.

But if you face that demon
and you put her in her place,
that part of you she lives in
will become an empty space.

Let's fill that space together,
we'll build something new,
and send that devil back to hell:
far away from me and you.

June 5, 2013

Personality Test

Choose the a.
or choose the b?
Either could be
right for me.

Choose the b.
or choose the a?
Which is better?
I can't say.

But if this test
is what you need
I'll do my best
with all due speed.

You're the shepherd;
I'm the sheep:
struggling to escape
Bo Peep.

June 7, 2013

The Gift

God said, "My son, you have a gift."
I said, "What kind if gift is this
"to show up in my life right now
"when I feel so deprived of bliss?"

"I've prayed for so much lately, Lord,
"but this? It almost seems insane!
"And what if every word I write
"is filled with heartbreak, loss, and pain?"

He said, "Take joy in all you write
"and know those words all come from me.
"I put those words in you before
"the first day of eternity."

"Have faith in me, take up your pen.
"There's purpose in the things you say,
"but use it for my glory, son
"or what I gave, I'll take away."

June 5, 2013

Apology

Sorry but my sense of self
doesn't ever seem to falter.
Welcome to The Church of Me —
leave your offering on the altar.

June 4, 2013

The Properties of Odd

The counselor said, "You're kind of odd,"
and maybe that's a bad thing.
I guess we'll know the answer once
I'm finished with the testing.

But even as I fill the blanks
I face the possibility
that once we have me figured out
I'll cease to interest even me.

June 4, 2013

Phone Call

I called to talk to you about
what's hurting me today.
Things I can't forget because
my mind's stuck on replay

You act like I should just forget
and all would be okay.
And I would let it go if I
could figure out a way.

You could help by listening
to what I need to say.
But you just laid the phone aside,
then turned, and walked away.

June 1, 2013